Late night blogging

Reflections and reminiscing of past events. It is amazing how I still manage to pull through despite of everything else. I really don't have that many possessions or just anything, and I think it's okay. So what, right? Who cares? Even if the prospect of brighter future is so hazy as of the moment, I still feel secure regardless. Deep down inside I am convinced of the grand design in all of this. I am meant to be all that I am. I am designed for a purpose. You know those stories where everybody is living clueless of the upcoming situation, and then the situation comes and they are all caught of guard. Then someone, the grand architect, reveals his plans and tells everybody that everything they have done and who they are, who they are with is all part of the plan --- for that "one purpose". Take for example the Sith Lord and what he has done with Anakin. The Sith Lord planned on taking Anakin over the dark side and conceives of schemes and grand situations only for that purpose. Or if you happen to watch Charmed they always talk about the grand design and how their hardships, disappointments, drama as well as their glory, bliss and lovelife fits the purpose of a battle versus good and evil. And no interference with the angels of death or destiny could alter the course of their lives. I feel that way right now.

Today even if it is summer time, rain has been pouring during the day. Divisoria was covered with "burak". Anyone wouldn't feel clean in that situation, even delivery boys have to consider wearing rain boots. That's how dirty Divisoria is during the rainy season. Don't ask for pictures because it is just gross, no exaggeration there.

We went home earlier today to go to an event. My mom was invited to FDAP's fashion week fashion show in the Fort, at the Tent. Beautiful people all over. Unfortunately I wasn't able to take pictures. For me it was a break from my current routine of going to Divisoria and staying at home. After the show me, my mom, ate and younger sister ate at Gourdo's. Their seared salmon is delicious. But the salad they served to my mom had a live larva crawling out of it. It was funny how she reacted. Anyway, we didn't pay for the salad but I still enjoyed my late dinner. We walked for a few minutes, bought donuts and some ice cream and headed home.

Latter Days

I just recently watched the movie Latter Days Without a doubt it can't be shown in this country, maybe in another 100 years. It's a cheezy movie. But it is still a love story where a shallow pretty person falls in love with a good/virtuous/complicated/deep pretty person. They connect and find deeper connection alongside with their initial attraction with each other. They eventually find themselves opening up, and find conflicts within themselves and from other people. They get separated and then another tries to find each other. Then the other returns to the shock of the other. And they lived happily ever after. The story is not very suprising. Although there is a twist, it's not heterosexual. So, a love story happening between two people happens transcendentally across the board. In this movie's case, it just happens to be about two dudes. But as it is, it is a fiction, or is it? I have a big hunch this kind of storyline happens frequently in the land of the "illustrados" and "fabulous masa".

Love, care and a healthy young adult life

As it seems, there is a psychological frame of thought behind growing up as a young adult. From the few webpages I have read, it starts around early 20s and ends at the age of 30 or so. So far everything I have read is very interesting and I can relate with the ideas being presented. The stage I am in particular is called Erikson's 6th Stage: Intimacy vs. Isolation. The idea is at this stage you will have to be able to form good social relationship with others, or isolation and being afraid with comitting with others.

Here are some pointers one have to consider about having a succesful development in the young adult stage.
1. Physical health - I think I'm failing here. I have gained so much weight so far and I am in my heaviest as of the moment. I also have substance abuse (smoking). And lots more... my grade would be F.
2. Psychological and emotional well-being - I am a C here. I am just in the process of becoming well and trying to have a good attitude about most of the things in life.
3. Life Skills - I am average with this so a C to a B would be fair. But I still have to work on my interpersonal skills and self-efficacy.
4. Ethical behavior - I would like to rate myself but I am thinking of giving myself A for honesty (I just hope people believe this, hahahaha) and C for demonstrating care for others and an F for taking responsibility for myself.
5. Healthy family and social relationships - with friends I am bad about it, so I would probably give myself a D. With my family I have always been an active member so a B to B+ would be appropriate.
6. Educational attainment - despite not being a cum laude, I think I deserve an A here just because I was able to complete my college with a double Bachelor's degree in Secondary Religious Education and Philosophy. Hopefully I can also pursue my masteral or even a PhD in the future.
7. Civic Engagement - None as of the moment, that can be planned and worked out. But an F is very suitable for now.

So my initial evaluation of my young adult life is average at best. Let's see maybe we can turn this around and make it a more succesful young adult life.

Favorite things

Top 3 Favorites...

1. Quarter Pounder with cheese...Go big time please :o
2. Winston Lights
3. Coffee

Warm Sunday

Mainit ang panahon, summer na talaga.

Guys I want you to meet Uther and Cute-cute. They're supposedly mag-jowa, friends and lifetime companions. Cute-cute is the youngest daughter of Sophie and Spunky. Uther was bought by my dad to be Sohie's kabit, but unfortunately the good for nothing dog was unnatural when it comes to sex. Yes, when you taught sex is so easy, here is a dog that disapproves everything you know about it. Uther is so gadamn clueless about where to put his wohoo! Even with help from dextrous hands, it just misses the mark. And so we thought that maybe he is meant for someone else, Cute-cute. Cute-cute just had her "visitor" and is in heat. So as we normally paired them and watched for developments. Nothing. Sometimes he moves into position but then... hay, it is so frustrating!

Jerks!

It's really difficult not to say anything bad about anyone. But when you are reactive and caught up in the moment it is not easy to just brush it off your shoulder. Even with people you know or close with, talking about them even neutrally can be misinterpreted by the second person and even more so with the third person.

So,
1. Don't talk about anyone, unless asked appropriately.
2. Narrating events or small chit chats can be dangerous, because it can always be misinterpreted
3. Therefore, talk about the weather, an animal, an object or a situation but do not mention any name or describe anyone in the same social group as the topic.
4. Stop being reactive always, sometimes being apathetic and nonchalant is really useful.
5. Be honest about your feelings and thoughts, however sharing them is not a duty or obligation. Meaning feelings or thought about other people regardless of intention is a big forbidden zone.
6. When they don't like you, they will have the meanest thing to say. So learn to chose which words to listen to. If the person's meaning and goal is to hurt then it is best that he/she be forgotten.
7. Don't volunteer information, let them ask.
8. If you don't want to answer, ask another question or ask it back.
9. THERE ARE ALWAYS SOMEONE WATCHING AND LISTENING, and they're not even God.


more to come...